Reflections - 24/05/2025

I spent much of yesterday in a hurry. There was an urgency to everything I did as I had fixed deadline. Work which needed completing by a certain time, travel plans which had to be met or missed, and multiple meetings across personal and business life. The day ended with a discussion with a gentleman who owns land next to mine which my wife and I are interested in renting short-term, and buying longer term, which was are first introduction. Then a late dinner with my daughter in a Turkish restaurant. It was a long busy day, with lots of 'busy' and 'doing', and very little time for reflection. Got back to my hotel room at 11pm, which is a late night for me!

All that said and done it was a good day. I did not feel stressed or anxious. I met all my deadline and got a reasonable nights sleep. Woke early, 20 minutes mediation, and now this journal. My daughter had a glass of wine over dinner, and the man I met about renting the land, had a beer during our introductory meeting. Both I clocked, but was not tempted. That is a good sign. Sobriety is the the only way forward to be honest. When I slip I go down hard and the black dogs, as Churchill called them, swiftly start to encircle me.

But today is a good day. Life feel lighter. My troubles are many, but they are all in plain sight and feel manageable. My children all seem happy and I love my wife and she loves me. What more is there to ask for?